Quite some time ago - just before I moved from Texas to Tennessee - I learned something very valuable.
I learned there are times in our life when God will remove us from situations - for protection. And some of those events can be extremely - painful - despite our own personal understanding about the seriousness of such a necessity.
There comes a time in every event we find ourselves centered within - when the mother in every mother is supposed to let go - and just - give it to God. Knowing our hearts as much as He does - we can rely on Him to take charge when the need is sufficient enough - even if it means He has to remove us from the scenario - literally.
And it will come in the strangest ways. But just holding onto faith in Him - like it were some kind of security blanket - while sitting back to wait - be still - and know that He is God - the outcome is always much more brighter - creative - and inspiring.
Nothing like we'd even imagine. But - so much more than it ever will be - if we insist on fighting to stay in the middle of all the mess.
I can’t be sure what would be going on with me at this time - were it not for this little 22 lbs. of chaos ( as of yesterday ) entering our home and our family.
But I am sure of my faith - in God. And right now - I'm dumping all my trust in Him. Almost thirty years of my life depends on that. Because right now - almost thirty years of my life feels like it was all for nothing. Anything positive or right that I ever did - was never enough.
If only I'd met my husband back in 1980.