Time For Me to Fess Up

Ever since the beginning of this year - I just have not felt myself.  I mean - literally - physically.

And it was no help with changing my feelings when out of the clear blue - I gained 26 pounds in the course of about 4 weeks during the middle of January and first half of February.

You’d think I had sat on my butt in front of this computer for 24 hours - literally - while pushing down piled plates of junk food.

The actual truth - if there must be a fault I carried differently at that time - I tried staying away from what I call ’ false foods ’ - which left me digging a hole to hide and suck down all the coffee I could make - every moment I was awake.  I decided coffee was the lesser of the evils - next to the insane calories to be found in scratch baking with ’ real ’ butter.

At the same time - I would sit down in front of the computer after dinner with a full glass of ice water.  The computer kept me preoccupied all the way to that one time when I’d pick the glass up to drink - and it would be empty.

I’ve never been a fan of water - beyond a body of water full of fish for me to catch.

All through the growing season this year - I noticed my physical ability was really going downhill.

Normally - my body would acclimate within a few weeks and I could do just about anything.  I seemed to be going nowhere but further away from toning muscles and building strength this year.

At the same time - I began developing difficulty in breathing - reaching a point where I had to stop and stand for a few minutes - just to stop gasping for air.  I found that not only downright aggravating - but outrageously strange - considering the fact that I had quit smoking in September of 2009.

Finally - I chose to find a different doctor - located closer to where we live - to have things checked out.

A couple weeks ago - my visit with my doctor resulted in her feeling almost positive that I was dealing with Fibromyalgia.

My next appointment with her was to be this coming October 11th.  However - I ended up calling and having the appointment moved up sooner.  I had reached a point where I could not even finish half a sandwich.

My breathing was becoming worse.  But the ultimate concern was - for example - waking up in the morning and eating two pieces of 100% whole wheat toast with a little bit of margerine and preserves - water - coffee - Prylosec and Meloxicam that were prescribed by my doctor.

Within a few minutes after running through that list there - my stomach swells.  By the time I try having some lunch - I cannot see my feet while standing.  I look like I’m about 7 months pregnant.


I went in to see my doctor this past Monday.  I had lost 2 pounds when I’d been to see her two weeks prior to this day.

But on this day - the scale informed us all that I had gained 11 pounds - within only 2 weeks.  Yet - I’m doing more - but eating less - and only home-cooked meat and veggies.

My entire body stays bloated and swollen.  I fight like hell to use a pen to write checks out for bills - or - sign my name.

It’s never worth getting blood outta me without fair warning and allowing me time to suck up about a gallon of water.  I ended up going back the next day to give blood and urine.  The chest x-ray came out just fine.

But I go for an ultrasound on October 7th.

My doctor suspects gallbladder - and I may be looking at surgery.

I can only hope that’s all that’s wrong.