“ Look, Mama! I can fly ! “
I can see Bill Cosby doing this.
I see Jim Carrey doing this.
I see Dick Cheney - doing this.
I see Mr. “ T “ encouraging this.
“ Whatchyoo’ think yo’ doin’ - Fool ! “
“ Mama - they’re bein’ mean to me ! “
“ C’mon, Carlie! Get up ‘n fight like a Girl ! “
“ But - Mama. “
Quite some time ago - just before I moved from Texas to Tennessee - I learned something very valuable.
I learned there are times in our life when God will remove us from situations - for protection. And some of those events can be extremely - painful - despite our own personal understanding about the seriousness of such a necessity.
There comes a time in every event we find ourselves centered within - when the mother in every mother is supposed to let go - and just - give it to God. Knowing our hearts as much as He does - we can rely on Him to take charge when the need is sufficient enough - even if it means He has to remove us from the scenario - literally.
And it will come in the strangest ways. But just holding onto faith in Him - like it were some kind of security blanket - while sitting back to wait - be still - and know that He is God - the outcome is always much more brighter - creative - and inspiring.
Nothing like we'd even imagine. But - so much more than it ever will be - if we insist on fighting to stay in the middle of all the mess.
I can’t be sure what would be going on with me at this time - were it not for this little 22 lbs. of chaos ( as of yesterday ) entering our home and our family.
But I am sure of my faith - in God. And right now - I'm dumping all my trust in Him. Almost thirty years of my life depends on that. Because right now - almost thirty years of my life feels like it was all for nothing. Anything positive or right that I ever did - was never enough.
If only I'd met my husband back in 1980.
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Left on Facebook by Edwena (Stinker) Wingo:
Teresa.....After reading "between" your lines, I know exactly what you are going through. Nothing you do will ever be enough & nothing you say is heard. You must distance yourself & fight through that feeling of loss, knowing that you are doing this for your own sake. And I know that without a strong faith, it is impossible. I, myself, need the ... See Morepeace that this decision brought me, I can no longer take the stress of these situations. I have had to take myself out of the life of some people for my own well being, yet I love them none the less. The adage " Let Go and Let God" is so true at this point. You are an amazing, strong, woman..... it's gonna be OK. ♥
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