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Monday, May 31, 2010

I'll Spare You the Tears






















We’ve hung our flag outside - off our front porch - despite all the rain.  Nothing can stop me on this day - when I want to find even the least bit way to send a “ Thank You - I’m thinking of you.

Hubby had to work this holiday - of course.  Hence - I’ve remained at home with the pups.  Yet - I refused to let this weekend go by without reaching out to find current members of our military and make sure they know that I appreciate their personal decision to - literally - commit their life to serving in protecting my own.

One of the negative aspects I’m discovering while going through therapy at this time is that mountains of compressed pain are beginning to - flake loose - from deep inside me.  I kid you not - there are television commercials that can even break the dam wide open.  And there I go - floating in tears - " dog-paddling " for tissue.

This makes it difficult for me to even say - “ Hello ! “ - even more frustrating - having the fun I guess I’ll always wish I could do - with randomly walking up and just hugging every military member that enters my eyesight when I’m out in public.

Oh - I have made numerous attempts.  It’s backfired - in one way or another.  I’ve pissed off wives standing next to - or - nearby.  Or - the worst - I’ve broken down into some sobbing freak that looks like she’s having a complete meltdown.

I have family members that served in the military.  And truth is - I wouldn’t even be capable of  sharing a dry and pleasant greeting full of smiles and hugs with them today.  Isn’t that just pitiful!!

You’d think I could - at the very least - muster up a little bit of emotion.

I know!  It’s scary!  And I feel so horrible for everyone - especially my poor husband.  He loves me.  He has to stand there in support of me - while I purge all this embarrassment down his throat!

So for the sake of everyone -

Every current member of our military - AND their families -
For every surviving Veteran of our Armed Forces - AND their families -
And every surviving family member of each and every single fallen military hero ever having served for this country -

I want to just tell everyone of you - right here and now…

It could never be enough to simply say - “ Thank You. “  It will never be enough - but - “ Thank You.

Please know that- as the family of this household goes on with chaos and mayhem reigning our daily lives - thoughts of you - and gratitude for you - are woven right in with the mix.

You are just as much a part of our family.  And you are loved

2 comments:

Deb said...

There is nothing wrong with shedding tears, I sometimes think I don't do enough of it...least in the sad times....not that I don't cry, but just because a loved one dies doesn't mean I will...just guess it depends on how unexpected it was and how close we were.

Curly Tail Farm said...

Thank you, and it was my pleasure to do my part.

Monday, May 31, 2010

I'll Spare You the Tears






















We’ve hung our flag outside - off our front porch - despite all the rain.  Nothing can stop me on this day - when I want to find even the least bit way to send a “ Thank You - I’m thinking of you.

Hubby had to work this holiday - of course.  Hence - I’ve remained at home with the pups.  Yet - I refused to let this weekend go by without reaching out to find current members of our military and make sure they know that I appreciate their personal decision to - literally - commit their life to serving in protecting my own.

One of the negative aspects I’m discovering while going through therapy at this time is that mountains of compressed pain are beginning to - flake loose - from deep inside me.  I kid you not - there are television commercials that can even break the dam wide open.  And there I go - floating in tears - " dog-paddling " for tissue.

This makes it difficult for me to even say - “ Hello ! “ - even more frustrating - having the fun I guess I’ll always wish I could do - with randomly walking up and just hugging every military member that enters my eyesight when I’m out in public.

Oh - I have made numerous attempts.  It’s backfired - in one way or another.  I’ve pissed off wives standing next to - or - nearby.  Or - the worst - I’ve broken down into some sobbing freak that looks like she’s having a complete meltdown.

I have family members that served in the military.  And truth is - I wouldn’t even be capable of  sharing a dry and pleasant greeting full of smiles and hugs with them today.  Isn’t that just pitiful!!

You’d think I could - at the very least - muster up a little bit of emotion.

I know!  It’s scary!  And I feel so horrible for everyone - especially my poor husband.  He loves me.  He has to stand there in support of me - while I purge all this embarrassment down his throat!

So for the sake of everyone -

Every current member of our military - AND their families -
For every surviving Veteran of our Armed Forces - AND their families -
And every surviving family member of each and every single fallen military hero ever having served for this country -

I want to just tell everyone of you - right here and now…

It could never be enough to simply say - “ Thank You. “  It will never be enough - but - “ Thank You.

Please know that- as the family of this household goes on with chaos and mayhem reigning our daily lives - thoughts of you - and gratitude for you - are woven right in with the mix.

You are just as much a part of our family.  And you are loved

2 comments:

Deb said...

There is nothing wrong with shedding tears, I sometimes think I don't do enough of it...least in the sad times....not that I don't cry, but just because a loved one dies doesn't mean I will...just guess it depends on how unexpected it was and how close we were.

Curly Tail Farm said...

Thank you, and it was my pleasure to do my part.